Everywhere I turned felt like a trap that led to more confusion, doubt and shame. I wasn’t afraid of being gay – I was afraid that I was lying about it.

Sometimes I feel like an intruder in queer spaces. OCD paints you as the liar, but only to yourself.

The paradoxical logic of ‘Pure O’ OCD also applies to its manifestation within the body. It turns out the bodily nightmare that I had experienced has a name — ‘The Groinal Syndrome.’

Sophie King explores living with OCD and the intrusive sexual thoughts that accompany it.